her friends are meeting in sf adn i cant deide if I want to go there or not. i just dont konw. i feel sick, but i knwo its in my head.
fuck!
why?
what happened?
how did we fail her?
in the back of my mind i am also thinking of other friedsnm, who recentlky received similar bad news about another friend of theirs - not someone i know, but somoen who meant a lot to them.
i'm supposed to br working on stuff for a sale this sunday and i am ujst in shock and dont know what to do with myself.
it;'s trite, but: why/ why? why?
