But I really want to get this down.
Last night, I had a DJ gig in SF, for a women's networking group. I'd spun for them before, back in January 2005, just before FC. That one was a particularly challenging gig for me. I was not in a good place (in fact it was one of the worst times I've ever lived through) and I really hadn't even wanted to leave the house, much less go out and set up gear, play music, and be all friendly with a bunch of people (most of whom I didn't know.) But, I had to do it. I was grateful to Mare for booking me, and I couldn't let her down! It turned out to be the right thing to do - once I got there, it went well, and people seemed to enjoy my music (both the guests and the restaurant staff.)
Now, I'm coming from a totally different place. My life is really good. I feel sure of myself, what I'm doing and where I'm going. Back then, it was a struggle just to move forward and deal with daily stuff. Now, the difference is like night and day.
None of this consciously occurred to me untiI I happened to catch a glimpse of myself in the large mirror hanging on the opposite wall, while spinning. Then, I suddenly had this intense awareness of where I was, and how far I'd come in the past year (and a few months) since the last time I'd seen myself in that mirror. And I felt so fortunate to be where I am right now.
The DJing went well. People enjoyed the music (when they even noticed it - this was one of those gigs where the fact that there is a DJ makes a lot more difference than anything I could do.) Then again, I pulled off a couple of amazing mixes... if I do say so myself.
When I got set up and as playing my first track, some guy was standing nearby, and he decided to hassle me for not playing vinyl rekkids. I gave him the old "well, what you're saying is the same as saying that painting is the only art, and drawing or sculpture can't be art - does it matter more where the music comes from, or how it sounds?" all while cuing up my second track (one I'd never mixed before) and when I mixed it in, I hit it spot on and made a flawless mix! Heh heh heh.
(Yes, there were boys in the women's networking group this time. I suppose it's unavoidable, and there's really not anything wrong with it, in principle anyway. The people who say that the dynamic is different in a mixed group are right, though. I suppose it's possible that some woman might have chosen to hassle me about not spinning vinyl, as an excuse to talk to the dj (which is all it was, of course) but it's such a guy thing really. I should say that the other guys in attendance were all very nice... of course, there's always one.) Anyway...
This put a grin on my face, and after that, I took off! Not all my mixes were that perfect, but I got in some that were so good, all I could do was stand there for a moment with my eyes closed, and I left the place with a smile on my face. It also didn't hurt that the food was once again amazing, the staff friendly, and Mare super sweet (and cute as hell, all round and pregnant!)
It's the spring equinox. The days are getting longer, the earth is coming back to life (in this part of the world, anyway) and life is good!