December 14th, 2005

fire

What a day... ugh

So today I had lunch with teh ExBF, and it was... challenging.

I think this kind of processing is probably something we need to go through in order to be able to deal with each other, so overall it is probably a good thing. But I found it really exhausting, especially when it came to how very different our perceptions about various events of the past year seem to be.

Afterwards I was tired, and just not good for much.

It didn't help that on the way there, first I missed the exit on the freeway and had to go way out of the way before I could exit, and then I was very nearly in an accident (the closest I have ever come!) because some jerk didn't know where he was going, whipped his car back into my lane (after being almost completely turned onto another street) and proceeded to drive like a jackass, all the while having a carfight with the person in the car with him. I had to slam on the brakes so hard that I could feel the antilock mechanism working. I was proud of myself for avoiding the accident - it wasn't easy.

The lunch started out fine, and ended ok, but overall it was just... draining.

Well, here is hoping that we can move past this stuff. I am letting him borrow the van and am being very accommodating around that, so hopefully he'll see that it is in his best interest to chill out.

(On a more positive note, the spaghetti sauce I made tonight ROXXORED!!!) ; )

Tyord... time for bed.