It's also sort of a "Quest for the Perfect Moment" kind of thing... I had a great time for most of last year but there were a couple of rough spots and I'd like to go back this year and just have it all go well. (I don't see why it couldn't - except of course that I can't go in the first place.) The year before had its ups and downs - most of it was either fabulous or awful. (And I was only with the BF for about half of the time that year... and the rest of the time the exh was pushing and pulling on me and my plans in an effort to regain control over the relationship, and me.) And the year before *that*, well I think that was the year that my own personal theme was "pain and pleasure"...
Dammit, I just want to go again!
But I will probably be in school. And even if not, BF will for sure be in school, and it wouldn't be as much fun without him... to the point that I'd rather just stay home than miss him for a whole entire week. (I know, I'm a baby. But I'm just not that outgoing, and besides, part of the point is that I want to be there with my darling partner. Like I said, I only had a year and half a year of that. Is that too much to ask?!) AND I find it really difficult to get top sleep on my own. REALLY difficult...
Anyway, Burning Man has always been my favorite vacation.
Oh why oh why can't we go?
I want my Perfect Year, dammit!
I know, I sound spoiled. But I have been going every year since 1996 and I'm used to it... and also I had so many difficult times there with the exh, and I was just starting to get to enjoy being there with someone who is fun, supportive, thoughtful and kind to me. And I got a year and a half of that, and now I am locked out.